Have you been ever been waken up in the middle of the night or super early in the morning and just couldn’t get back to sleep? That’s been happening to me so often lately. I told a friend about it, early one morning, and they told me that’s when she knows it’s time to get in her word. Like okay God, what? What would you like to talk to me about Lord?
I’m sure there has to be a scientific explanation as to why my thoughts are this active during that time I’m supposed to be in a deep sleep, but I’m also sure there’s no scientific “cure”. What puts my mind at rest is having a deep talk with God. Sometimes I don’t even know what’s on the agenda for the meeting, but I just make sure I show up with an open heart to receive what He has to say.
However, most times, I just start talking His ear off. During those moments, it’s usually a brain dump. “Lord, what do you want to talk about? Is it this? Or maybe this. Ohhhh, it’s this right?” If nothing else, that helps me get things off my chest and starts the process of me giving whatever it is to God so it is can stop keeping me up at night.
The sun is barely peeking on the horizon, and I’m up blogging. Lol. Eyes just popped open and I felt led to write. So here I am, with a plethora of things. But let’s start with addressing the mess that this year is. 2020 is almost considered a cuss word at this point.
Sistas how y’all feel? Brothas y’all alright?
The second half of the year has commenced and, honestly, I’m just hoping The Purge sirens don’t go off. I can’t recall another time in my life when things went THIS left. It’s been one thing after another. COVID-19 is trying to wipe us all out and the police is trying to wipe us *points at beautiful black skin* out. Plus, I know we’re all going through our own individual battles. There’s still injury recovery, disease diagnoses, financial issues, family drama, layoffs, car problems, heartbreaks, deaths in the family, ended friendships, mental health crises, etc etc etc. Any more bad news, and you’re liable to snap...
IF you’re trying to take that on by yourself.
Psalms 55:22
“Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken.”
I saw a post on Instagram the other day that said, “Could you imagine not knowing God in this season?” Whew. No. Don’t even want to imagine that. What would I hold on to? What would keep my hope intact? Literally, how would I survive?
Without Him at the center, I’d definitely be playing in traffic somewhere. Losing my mind. Most of the recent conversations I have with my loved ones are “but God” conversations. Yes, the world is a mess, but God is still in control. When everything looks like it’s falling apart, that’s what we literally have to hold on to. I have to constantly remind myself of that because if I go by what I see? I’m not gone make it.
2 Corinthians 5:7
“For we walk by faith, not by sight.”
The promises You made will still be fulfilled. The dreams that You’ve placed in my heart will still be pursued and accomplished. What I know to be true doesn’t change because the world is going up in smoke.
Remind us of that Lord.
Every time CNN notification pops up. Every time we hear a gut wrenching story about another racially motivated crime. Every time we come across another trial we think will take us out. Remind us that You have it all taken care of.
In the name of Jesus I pray, amen.