I used to be so annoyed with God throwing wrenches in my plans y’all. Lol. Don’t get me wrong, it still stings sometimes but, generally, I take it gladly. Like, yes God. Please save me from whatever path of destruction I was about to take myself down. I want what you have for me Lord, in all aspects.
I had no intention on writing about this topic, but here we are. I love how I think about one blog topic and then God is like, “NOPE. I want you to write about this.” Alright God, you got it. There’s obviously a reason, and I don’t even need to know what it is. Blogging with God in mind will forever have me in the passenger’s seat. I’m a planner so, ideally, I’d like to write a little every day and produce a blog with the topic that I’ve chosen. How it actually goes: I try to force the topic I want, and God slaps me with another. This usually results in me writing my blog “at the last minute” when, in reality, I’m writing at the exact moment that I’m supposed to. The theme of telling my testimony while I’m in it will always be at the forefront of The Ki Component so I ain’t even trippin’.
Let’s get into it.
Have you ever thought you were too good for a certain sin? Before you say no, I want to challenge that. Because, the thing is, I know the things I go through are not exclusive to me. I know for a fact that someone else in the world is going through what I go through, but aren’t as willing to talk about it. I’m here to expose the devil’s lies and call out his tactics, man. When you think you’re too good for a certain sin the devil will show you that you’re still not exempt. Let me give a tangible example.
When Michael Todd dropped his final installment of his Relationship Goals, addressing his battle with pornography, I didn’t even watch it. I did, however, forward it to my friends who I know struggle with it. Because, no. Not me. That’s not my sin. That’s not my struggle. Not my thing.
Mind you, THIS WAS LESS THAN 24 HOURS OF ME WATCHING A BIBLE STUDY ON TEMPTATION. LIT Bible Study just broke down temptation and, although I was listening, I didn’t think it applied to me for real.
One night recently, I couldn’t sleep. Quarantine has my sleep schedule all the way off. Anyway, I’m up watching tv, but then I want to lay down in my bed. So, I go there and get on social media, just scrolling, first on Instagram and then on Twitter. I don’t usually frequent twitter, but I was bored and restless, so why not? I’m clicking and clicking and end up on this entire twitter page dedicated to pornography. Like, real stuff. Video clips and pictures. Did I click off the page? Nope. I watched it. And then kept watching. Next thing you know, my mind is wandering to places it hasn’t visited in a while. Immediately after, I was legitimately nauseous. Instantly convicted. I went to sleep feeling really guilty and I felt condemning spirit take over. I felt like crap y’all.
But my God is greater. I woke up and I prayed and repented as SOON as I woke up. I knew I couldn’t start my day on the energy from the night before. I kid you not, I open my bible app and this was the scripture of the day.
1 Corinthians 3:16
Don’t you know that you yourselves are God’s temple and that God’s Spirit dwells in your midst?
How clear is that?! It’s no coincidence. God needed me to see that to remind me of how He sees me, how valuable I am, and to not be reduced to the trash that this world tries to feed me. Also, it was a blatant reminder to not even open the door to sexual immorality. I’ve done so well with my celibacy and my mindset concerning how God views sex. No need to even play with fire. I don’t feel condemned, praise God. I feel encouraged that His love inspires me to live better, for Him first. But also, for me.
Never think that you’re too far removed from sin, old or new. Don’t get caught slippin’ because you can be humbled really quickly, and I promise that’s not what you want. Proverbs 16:18 says, “Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall.” Spiritual arrogance is never the attitude you want to approach life with. The closer you are to God, the harder the devil tries to make you fall. You don’t reach maximum level Christianity, and then the devil just leaves you alone. In the same way a boxer keeps his hands up to prevent a punch to the face, we have to stay in our Word to block the enemy. The phrase “stay ready so you don’t have to get ready” comes to mind. We should always be ready to soak up any piece of advice, information, or scripture available to us, even if it feels like it doesn’t apply to us at that moment. You could use that information later in life or even come across someone who needs it in the future. That, ultimately, builds our spiritual muscles. That’s what it’s all about anyway right?
Be blessed y’all.