Over the past year, I’ve become more involved with church than I’ve ever been in my life. To clarify, by involved, I mean that I am consciously putting effort into growing my relationship with God. It’s hard to believe that the bare minimum was ever enough for me. Because, if I try to give God lackluster energy, I feel it and my spirit doesn’t accept it. He wants more.
So, I’ve sat in church. I’ve taken notes. I’ve listened to the choir. I’ve gone to Bible study. I’ve fellowshipped with likeminded believers. What now?
A big thing that I’m always reminded of is that you need to be about that action if you’re rockin’ with God. He’s not interested in you just “looking the part”; He wants you to apply what you learn from all the wonderful sources he’s put on this earth to pour into you, to pour into others. I’m a scenario user so I’ll put it like this: what’s the use of going to the gas station to fill up and then you walk home instead of using your car? It makes absolutely no sense, especially with the current ridiculous gas prices. Lol. Why would we spend our time and sit in church and not apply what we’ve learned?
Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like someone who looks at his face in a mirror and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. But whoever looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues in it—not forgetting what they have heard, but doing it—they will be blessed in what they do.
Going through the motions of going to church, Bible study, spiritual conferences, reading the Bible, and doing devotionals is all great. God is pleased with the effort, but at some point, you have to take it up a notch. Each day you need to be making sure that God is all up and through your thoughts and actions. When I’m navigating through everyday life, applying what I’ve learned through these various spiritual avenues really saves me, and others, if we’re being honest. Whether it be practicing grace to myself and others, being slow to anger, or sticking to my celibacy, the Word is where I go to ensure that I am not just talking about it, but also walking it out. I walk it out for myself as well as others who are watching me. I want to always live by example, as I believe that is the best teaching/learning tool.
But can I be real right quick?
For the past couple of weeks, I haven’t been feeling it. You know how they say “When it rains, it pours.”? MAN. Last week was a perfect depiction. I felt like I was being attacked from all angles and, the worst part about it was, I feel like I’m closer to God than I’ve ever been. I’m in my Word. I’m constantly talking to God. So I had this temper tantrum moment. WHAT AM I DOING THIS FOR? WHAT’S THE POINT? I might as well go live life like I want to, since my life is in shambles anyway. Luckily, my tantrums come to an end and I get back to my logical self. God still wants us to apply His Word while we’re in our storms, even more-so than when things are going well. It shows Him that, even during hard times, He is at the forefront of my mind and heart.
This is my 10th post on The Ki Component. Wow! I can’t believe I’ve been this consistent with it. However, I do believe that God has put it on my heart to try and reach people in a way that wasn’t originally comfortable for me. I thank God for being uncomfortable during growth. I thank God for opening my heart to be more receptive and less resistant to Him. Thank you for a shift from “Do I have to?” to a “Yes sir.”